Movin on up!

It has been along time sinse my last entry. There's a good reason for that too. I have been so busy. Caleb and I moved back in with my Mom and Dad. They're so good to us. Carl and I just couldnt get along and I was tired of "living his lifestyle". He is content being well "you know what trash".....I am not! I feel bad that my son has to be there every other weekend but I can't change that.

I have been looking for work as well. Easier said than done. Nothing in my area is hiring. I have had a few interviews but never got a call back. One place wanted me to work only weekends and thats it. I didnt take that job.

Like a weed...

I cant believe my little baby boy is 1year and 5moths old!! He is fast approaching 2 years old. Where had the last 2 years gone? Caleb is learning something new everyday it seems. He learned what the moon was last night. We were going over the buckhman bridge last night and the moon was so big, bright, and full and Caleb kept calling it a "liiight" ha ha!!! He is so silly. Well needless to say h knows what moon is now. He says all his small normal words like mama, Mimi, daddy, Nana, papa. He calls Shelby "Addy"...LOL he can say Lily and baby really well. He wont stay Christian he calls him baby. Just growing up too fast it makes me sad sometimes but I LOVE LOVE LOVE watching him grow and learn and talk.

We are going to Disney World next weekend. It is our 1st family trip. I think Carl is more excited than I am ha ha!!! I am stuck with all the planning and spending money and gas and packing and all that good stuff that goes along with a vacation but it is still going to be a success regardless!!! I cant wait to see Caleb's fast when he sees Mickey Mouse.

These boots are made for walkin...

I have been so stressed out about losing weight lately it makes me crazy. I feel like I wake up everyday and ask myself "how did I get this way"....I know alot of it has to do with my Mirena. I shot up 40+ pounds within 2 months of having it put in. Although some women never gain a pound off of it. I am so depressed and mad at myself. Trying on clothes is the worst thing ever!!! I hate it. I would give anything to be the size I was in high school.

I have been walking 2 miles every afternoon with Caleb. He loves being outside and since we are cooped up all day its nice to get out. I bought a spiffy new "well new to me" jogging stroller. It works so well on concrete and on the little bit of dirt road that we have to walk down. I am hoping this will help with my weight loss. I would like to go to the beach and the pool this summer but not like this!!

**My Hiatus**

It all started when Carl came home from work and he is BITCHING about everything. The house isnt clean enough. Dinner was in the oven and not on the table. Caleb had a pissy diaper. Just everything....lately he has been coming home and seems so miserable. I hate to feel like he is unhappy here and unhappy with me or us. He sent me over the edge!! He toldme that I was talking to another guy (that i have never heard the name before) Just a petty fight turned into a big raging argument. OVER NOTHING. I decided to "give him the weekend" to himself. He lost his temper and threw his phone and broke it. I went to my moms for the weekend. Caleb went with me. My sister and I went and picked up dinner for my parents and us and had a great night. At 2am Caleb was STILL awake. At my moms all he has is his playpen. Hes outgrown it BIG TIME. He couldn't sleep. So Shelby and I took him home and I woke Carl up and told him that Caleb would be spending the weekend with him so I could clear my head and decide how to deal with things. The next day Mom and my sisters and I went out to lunch and shopping. We had a fun girls day. It was nice not to have to worry about diaper bags and a baby. Shelby and I went to saw New Moon that Saturday night. Had a blast except for the RUDE ghetto idiots at the mall that late at night. I stayed at my moms that night too and I cried myself to sleep. Ive never stayed away from Caleb since he has been born. Felt weird. But I ended up going back home that Sunday and getting back into my schedule and hectic life. I have not "forgiven" anything because nothing has even been apologized for!! I feel like I am "settling" for a lot of things in my life. But my life has become so comfortable but not happy. I don't know what to do or think sometimes. That's all for now!

Monster!!

So my little "Angel" is working on 15 months here soon. I cant believe it. I never imagined my sweet little boy would grow up to be such a handful!! He is into everything. He has started testing HARDCORE!!! He will look at me and touch something that he shouldnt. I hate to spank him but he is a VERY strong willed child. He would be OUT*OF*HAND with out discipline. In the picture he was supposed to be playing in his room while mommy was cooking dinner and i realized that he was being TOO quiet. So I wandered down the hall a little farther and yep the bathroom was DESTROYED! I will be so glad when this phase in our lives passes. He is saying all sort of words now. He has recently learned to say "thank you" and "cookie"......I wouldnt trade him for the world but life is "testy" right now. <3

*Twilight*

So this AMAZING series has consumed my life over the past month. I read all 4 book within 3 weeks! I wish the series never ended I could read and read and read. Theyre very good. Great books for any age group. Thanks Eva for suggesting them!! :) I have let my sister borrow them and she is reading just as fast as I did haha!!

12/14/2009

I will never forget this day as long as I live. It was 10am and Caleb and Lily were on the floor playing just like any other morning. Caleb's little chair tipped over and he fell face 1st into the fireplace! His mouth hit the stone. I rushed over to him and rolled him over and his entire mouth was filled with blood. I was so scared I ran him to the kitchen with my hand under his mouth to catch the blood. I threw him in the sink clothes and all!!! When I got the blood to stop I realized he had a very deep gash on the corner of his mouth. I mean it was deep enough for you lay the side of his mouth open! I called my Nana to come sit with Lily and Christian so I could take Caleb to the doctor. When I got to his Dr's office they took one look at him and told me that he needed to go to the ER and get stitches. So we drove over to the hospital and had to sit for a few min but they took him right back. We waited in a room for about 15min and the Dr finally came in and by that time Caleb was already pissed because he couldn't get down and run around. They wrapped him in a pillow case and strapped him down to a hospital bed and stuck a huge needle into his cut and all around his lip to numb it. He was screaming bloody murder! As the Dr was stitching up his face he was screaming and looking at me like "mom why are you letting them do this to me." I was crying!! I didn't notice until we got to the hospital that his tooth is broken! So after he was all stitched up the Dr told me to follow up with a dentist this week. I got him an apt at a local dentist on Thursday. We don't have dental insurance so I hope it wont cost us an arm and a leg but we will see!! Ill pay anything for him though. Money is no object when it comes to his health. Ill take out a loan if I have to!! He is actually doing okay today I am givin g him motrin for the pain and he is eating well so I am proud of my tough little man!